hi im aeron, a trans dude, and im venting here because i have some problems in my life but that doesnt mean im insane in the head, heres some things i like: deltarune, undertale, SML, irida, kevin spencer, adventure time, and mostly 2000s stuff, and i like coding in general, ive made some failures of roblox game attempts - but trust me im not a fucking idiot. i do like emo and real y2k stuff, not the fake tikok bullshit, but you know, i do have a tiktok and twitter and discord, but ill keep that stuff private, also here are some bands/music artists i like: alex g, msi, toby fox, The All-American Rejects, MCR, ICP, That handesome devil, sirmixalot, and well, yeah, i also have 3 cats, lola, pheona, and pheobie, shared by me and my siblings, pheobie is my cat, shes a skiddish cat, but i still love her, and i also like those youtube channels named johnnie guilbert and jake webber. i like them a lot,
im in this online group chat with people i know in real life, and the owner is this dude named kingston, and i HATE him, legit ill do something and he kicks me out of it, and when i wanna play something he says some shit like no.. and i have proof but ill save that for later, another thing, this dude is gay and does that popular girl shit like you know the "hopes this helps!" and "oop!" and this dude makes fun of my love life, sure i dated someone because i liked them? and then broke up with them because of you making me not feel anything for them. hmm?? and now im dating someone i love for real, and their non binary, their name is carmen, and god i wish i could hang out with them for hours, their so awesome. i love them so much. carmen if you find this i love you so goddamn much. i dont care what happens behind my life, i just care about you. your such a nice person, unlike kingston. his ass bullies me, and he makes jokes that make me feel bad about myself and makes me feel uncomfortable, i mean the jokes about how when i spread my legs like when i walk, he says "ewww!! you guys smell that?? it smells like fish!!!" and its so fucking annoying. its so fucking annoying it makes me want to rip my ears out. and this dude is hated on. i liked him as a friend for SO long. how do you make yourself SO UNLIKEABLE? also he bans fandoms in the group chat. i cant post anything i like or have my profile picture to anything banned because he times me out for it and its so fucking annoying, like having my pfp as spamton doesnt hurt you in any way. hating on fandoms? or hating on interests? FUCK HIM AND HIS BITCHASS ILLIT, KATSEYE, AND HIS NEWJEANS!! i vent to kerrington when im sad, kerrington is kingston's sister, way nicer than him - ive been friends longer with her than kingston, its a strong bond. im in band, i play the mini tuba, its called a ephonium and ive been learning piano, i can play big shot and the freedom motif from deltarune, its so fun to bring up spotify and play deltarune on the piano, it reminds me of kris kinda, they had searches about playing piano, its nice and i like it. also i'm friends with a girl named emma, their really nice but she sometimes can be rude, shes really good at art, makes me jelly how she can freedraw and make a masterpeice, but i also have a friend named nala, shes really nice, and im making a game with her, ive made friends in her server, its really fun making designs, and im called maya in their server, the main character of the game, and i have another character named monlio, a while monster, with stars on the cheeks of his face, its really funny when we call. but. there was something that happened, a friend in there named kat or silly syrup, they were really depressed or something, and they messaged nala, and asked if they wanted to play and nala was in a bad mood, so she ignored silly syrup, saying "not right now" or something, and it pissed kat off and now they are fighting on tikotk right now, and its kinda obvious that nala's the innocent one. nala has drama with kingston, because of another thing that happened were kingston kept calling me a slut then they got a "stay away agreement." its like a restraining order for students at my school, another friend of mine, aiden, had one put against him by some person named finley. for saying something really bad to them. for christmas my mom got me studded belts, i love them, but i need to gain a few pounds, it doesnt really fit my waist all the way, so i slant it, like those y2k photos of people wearing studded belts.
I had dark thoughts before. I kept something around because I didn’t trust myself back then. Now, when I look at my life, I realize I don’t want to leave this world. The pain it would cause would stay forever. I choose to stay. Some people hurt me deeply. Their actions pushed me into places I never should have been. That damage is real, and I’m still healing from it. I am alive. I love my friends. I love music. I love creating things. I am staying. I do matter. I don't reflect on kingston's actions.
kingston, if you find this, i meant everything, i made this because of you. your the one who needs to learn consent and how people have feelings.